...and all through the house...
Okay, I'm stopping there because my creativity juices are all dried up.
Very briefly, I'm going to explain a decision I made with Robert's help and support. Originally, I was scheduled to take my Shakespeare exam tomorrow morning at 7:45. But, as he and I were talking about it, we started to figure that it might be better to actually lead with the exam I'm the most freaked out about, which is my major exam on early English drama to 1642. When I say "major exam," I mean like an undergraduate degree major. Something one majors in. Because it is the exam that it is, and it carries so much weight and importance with it, I am severely nervous about it.
I broke down around 8 p.m. and completely lost it. Full on shouting, cussing, crying meltdown. Robert helped get me through it, and when I was ready to review the notes, we sat down on the couch together and went through them. The first time through, I was still in a panic, so I couldn't recall any of the information. After Robert and I dealt with my panic (by acknowledging it and talking about it), he started asking me questions in a different tack. Sure enough, I knew the information and was able to rattle on and on about different connections and ideas. By 9 p.m., he looked at me and said, "We've gone through all the notes. We're done." And that was all it took.
No, I have not studied only one hour for this exam. I have studied four months for it (well, and not to mention the years of graduate work behind me).
So, the plan is to tackle the scariest exam first so that I can get it out of the way and focus on the other two more "fun" exams: Shakespeare and general drama. I'm taking my general drama exam last because my professor plans to look at the theory on my other two lists and ask me broad, overarching questions. I'm studying to be an early modern dramatist, and his exam is really focused on all drama from the ancient Greeks to an American play that came out a couple years ago. He wants to make sure I can also draw connections from my early modern work to really any time period before and after. I think I can do that.
So, am I ready? Yes.
Am I confident? Yes.
Will I do well? Yes.
And why? Because I have the support and love of my family, Robert, and all my friends behind me. (Plus my examiners seem pretty excited to get me over this last hurdle so I can write my dissertation. I think they're interested in my claim.)
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