Little steps

This morning I woke up feeling...corpulent. But the mirror didn't quite agree with my mental feeling of uncontrolled obesity. So, I hopped on the scale before getting dressed, and the mirror's interpretation was confirmed: I've lost two pounds since Robert and I started working out last week. Even with four days off, I've still lost weight!

Fine, so two pounds may not be enough to help me drop a size (that'd be ten pounds), but it is enough to help turn my mind toward the attainable goals I've set for myself. If I'm going to be completely honest with my friends (who are the most likely readers of this blog), then I'll expose my goals in embarrassing detail.

Current stats: 5'3", 213 pounds (down from 215), bust size 40H (yes, H), pant size 18.

Goals:
September 13, 2008: My sister (maid-of-honor) is hosting my first bridal shower (for friends). I want to be at least a size 14 by then. Since dropping a pant size requires roughly a drop of 10 pounds, that would be about 20 pounds by September...which would put me below 200 pounds, thank God.

December 25, 2008: Robert proposed on Christmas morning 2007. I want to be around a size 12 or even a 10 by this Christmas, which would be an additional 10-20 pounds since September.

April 7, 2009: My aunt is hosting my second bridal shower (for family). By this date, I'd like to either be a definite size 10 or...if *gasp*...possible...a size 8. By the way, I'm not interested in becoming a stick figure. I would look irresistible as a size 8. By April, that would be a total of roughly 50 pounds.

May 23, 2009: The wedding date! I think a size 8 wedding dress would be perfect for me. I truly don't know if I'd want to go any smaller than that...it's been a while since I've been in the single digits anyway. Maybe a size 6? Wow...that number kind of intimidates me....

Things I want to keep: my breasts (though maybe take them down to a DD or D), my hips, a smaller version of my butt. When I was a senior in high school, about eight years ago, I weighed around 130 pounds. At the time, I thought I was a cow; however, gaining 100 pounds over the past eight years gave me a little perspective. I look at those pictures from that year, and I realize just how adorable I was. How boys managed to keep their hands off me, I'll never know. (Oh yeah, it could have something to do with the fact that I was a mondo-geek, hahaha.)

I want to be beautiful for my wedding. But I think I would feel beautiful at any weight...I feel beautiful just from the way Robert looks at me. More importantly than feeling beautiful, though, is that I want to be healthy for my marriage. I want to have healthy habits in place by the time we're married so that maintaining them won't be such a shock to our systems. I'm glad he and I are doing this together now; I believe it will have a number of benefits for our lifestyle when we're married.

Today's accomplishment: lost a total of 2 pounds!