This may be TMI, but I don't really care...only my friends read my blog, I'm sure, so I'll share this. I am a typical woman. And I suffer from horrible cramps when I'm on my period. Since I've started birth control a year ago, I've noticed several improvements, including regularity, mood maintenance, and lessening of painful symptoms. The birth control cannot stop all symptoms from appearing, but it sure does make a difference. Whereas up to a year ago, I would suffer at least two to two and a half weeks out of the month (bleeding only the one week, but experiencing pain and mood swings for the majority of the month), with the birth control I only suffer for a couple of days (not weeks!) during my menstruation, which is such a relief.
Although I do have modern medicine to be grateful for, I still feel a little grumpy when I'm in pain (even for the couple of days). And today's theme? Asking Robert to promise me it'll be worth it.
I have felt so sick and in so much pain today. I didn't go to my running class, and I felt really horrible for skipping out, but I knew I'd be worthless. I'll make it up tomorrow, because the good news is that tomorrow will likely be much less painful.
There are brief moments when I'm on my period, when I'm feeling ridiculously sensitive and irrational, that I wonder, "what if I'm not as fertile as I seem? What if we can't get pregnant? Am I wasting all this energy (and money!) on a bum pair of ovaries?" It's silly because I've never been tested for fertility, Robert and I have certainly never tried to have children, and we're not interested in having children right away anyway.
It's silliness, is what it is. But Robert's been a wonderful sport. And, I suppose all-in-all, despite what our future holds for us (children or none...though we both really hope we do have children in our future), what makes all of this worth it is knowing that even in my moments of complete irrationality, Robert will be supportive and compassionate. Sometimes it's about reminding oneself about the value in the little things.
On a different note, I helped Robert clean up his room today. He did the work in the bathroom (the place sparkles now!), and I focused on some laundry, reorganizing his dresser and most of the closet. After we were both finished with our tasks, we ended up going through some boxes that had just sort of accumulated on the perimeter of the bedroom. Now that it's straightened up, the room looks so much larger. Sometimes I get in these cleaning moods, and this one hit right when my cramps hit, ha...bad timing, but I didn't notice the pain because I was focused on helping Robert. It was actually kind of fun working on his room with him--we joked about some of the stuff we were coming across and whether or not it needed to be saved. Now, I'm not going to go as far as to say that I enjoy cleaning, but I am good at it (thanks, Mom). And I'm really rather proud of the work we did today.
Is it possible to have a nesting feeling before getting married?
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What BC are you currently on? It may take a different type of BC for you to be on to truly feel better. I went through three different types.
When you're cramping, it's the prelude to gettin' those egg sacks workin' to ovulate. It's like saying, "all right girls, one of you is leavin' the nest!" You'll notice with different BCs, you'll have different (or no) cramps.
Of course, you already know this, but truly severe cramps can be an indication of other problems as well.
I hope you feel better and get those lady parts in line :)
SUCH a sweet post! I love how much you love Robert. It really comes out in your blog!
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